At first I was confused... Seeing how much she's changed and seeing how much she's still the same as the girl I used to love. But I know its not in God's plan now. The more I thought about it, the more I realised that its not that I'm restricting myself from anything. Its that I can't bring myself to do anything. Its against my nature. I want to but I just cannot...

Spent time with God today... And I just started crying. My heart was so troubled. Not troubled for myself but for others. Its been awhile since I talked to God so freely. Then I heard this song on my Hi-Fi. It really comforted me... It reminded me that I'm not supposed to worry about these things...By worrying, its as if I'm telling God, "Yes, you're all-powerful and all-knowing... But somehow, I don't trust you."

::: Song of the Day :::
Lord of all creation, of water, earth and sky.
The heavens are your Tabernacle. Glory to the Lord on high!

Early in the morning, I will celebrate the life.
When i stumble in the darkness, I will call your name by night

Lord of heaven and earth
Lord of heaven and earth
Hallelujah, to the Lord of heaven and earth

God of wonders beyond our galaxy, you are holy, holy.
Precious Lord, reveal your heart to me, you are holy, holy.
The universe declares your majesty, you are holy, holy.


Shen brought his drumset over today... My room is becoming more and more like a jamming studio... Haha. Guitars on the floor... bass on the bed... Amps lying around. I hope the neighbours don't complain. We recorded a new tune we came up with. Think its quite nice... headed down to Raimah for dinner. Quite a lot of people there... There was Cheng, Ziig and Pam, Shaun, Jamie, Matt, Shen and myself... 'Seaman' joined us halfway... Denise and Jolynn came too... I was surprised to see Jolynn there cause she's supposed to have tuition? Anyway, had lots of fun talking nonsense with them. Went to play basketball after that... Shen, Denise and Seaman thrashed us (Cheng, Pam and myself). Had a stomachache after the game... turns out my brother had a stomachache at home also. Hmmm.. what did we eat?

I remember a few days ago, Shaun was exclaiming, "You???? Christian? I thought you from church of Satan... " Actually he's been making the same joke everytime he hears that I'm a Christian. I have to admit... Last year, I was not the ideal role model for Christianity. I guess if I'll just have to earn the respect then...